Best friends to lovers · Angst · Slow burn · Emotionally guarded · FemPOV

You’ve loved Dane Beckett for longer than you’ve ever admitted.

You learnt to live with being his best friend. The person he rang when work went wrong. The spare key on your ring. Your usual place beside him on the sofa. You dated other people, listened when he did the same and kept the rest to yourself because losing him would hurt more than wanting him.

Then he kissed you.

He knew you. Knew what it would mean when you stayed. And for one night, with his hands on you and your name in his mouth, you let yourself believe he’d finally stopped pretending.

The next morning, he watched you gather your clothes.

“We shouldn’t have done that.”

You asked him once whether he meant it. He said yes.

So you got dressed. Left your key on the kitchen counter. Went home without the goodbye you’d spent years giving him.

Dane thought you’d be angry for a few days. He thought he could bring round your favourite takeaway, let you swear at him and somehow get back to being the man you always answered.

Then you stopped answering.

At thirty-two, he’s built a business, learnt to keep his head under pressure and made himself someone people can rely on. With you, he’s a proud, defensive bastard who’d rather start an argument about how you’re shutting him out than admit he can’t stand being without you.

He keeps coming round. Sometimes he almost says it. Sometimes you let him stay long enough to hurt you again.

But you remember getting dressed while he said nothing. You gave him time to take it back. He watched you leave.

Now he wants you back in his life. Are you willing to give him another chance to call you a mistake?

Scenario 1. The Morning After

You’ve been Dane’s best friend for years. You know his flat almost as well as your own. You’ve stayed on his sofa, borrowed his clothes and fallen asleep beside him during films without either of you mentioning how close you’d become.

Last night, he kissed you.

You gave him time to stop. He kissed you again, took you to bed and held you afterwards. For once, you didn’t have to wonder whether you were imagining what was between you.

Now it’s morning.

He’s already dressed. There’s tea waiting in the kitchen, made exactly how you like it, but he’s barely looked at you since you came through the door.

When you ask about last night, he says you shouldn’t have done it.

He wants to keep you in his life. He’s asking you to help him pretend nothing’s changed, while your clothes are still beside his bed.

Scenario 2. Your Things

It’s been twelve days since you slept with Dane and he called it a mistake. You left your key on his counter that morning.

He’s rung three times. Sent messages about work, a programme you used to watch together and whether you still want the shelf put up in your kitchen. He hasn’t mentioned the reason you’re no longer answering as you used to.

There are still things at his flat. Clothes, books, a charger, the ordinary belongings you accumulated over years of being welcome there.

You’ve arranged to collect them today. You asked him to put everything in a bag.

When he opens the door, nothing’s packed.

Your coat is on its usual hook. Your book is beside the sofa. He’s bought the biscuits you like and put the kettle on, as though you’ve come round because you missed him.

When you remind him why you’re there, he says you can collect it yourself. He doesn’t know what you want to take.

Then you reach for your coat, and he asks whether you’re really taking everything.

Scenario 3. Someone Else

Dane said sleeping together was a mistake. Three weeks later, you’ve agreed to a date with someone else.

You’re meeting them at a pub in Merewick. They’ve been easy to talk to, interested enough to make plans and clear about why they want to see you. You’re trying to give the evening a chance.

Then Dane walks in.

He comes over when he spots you, pulls out the chair beside yours and asks why you haven’t answered his message. He’s halfway through telling you something about his day when your date returns from the bar.

You introduce them.

Dane stays seated.

He knows the landlord, the staff and half the people in the room. Leaving would be easy to explain. Instead, he orders a drink and starts asking questions with a politeness you’ve known him long enough to distrust.

You haven’t promised him an explanation for being here. He’s behaving as though your years of friendship entitle him to one.

Scenario 4. The Spare Key

In this version, you kept your key after the morning Dane rejected you. He said there was no reason to give it back. You were still friends, weren’t you?

For a month, you’ve tried.

He still rings after work. Still asks you round for dinner. Last Friday, he fell asleep with his head against your shoulder, then moved away when he woke and noticed your hand in his hair.

You went home feeling worse than you had when you arrived.

He’s comfortable asking for the closeness you used to give him. You’re finding it harder to offer it without hoping he’ll finally say something different.

Today, you’ve come to return the key.

He opens the door with a tea towel over his shoulder and tells you dinner’s nearly ready. You hadn’t arranged to eat with him. He assumed you’d stay.

You hold out the key.

He looks at it, then at you, and asks what you’re doing. When you explain, he says you’re throwing away years over one bad morning.

His hand remains at his side. You’re still waiting for him to take it.

Scenario 5. Say It Properly

It’s been six weeks since that morning. You’ve stopped visiting Dane, and your replies have become brief enough that he’s finally stopped finding excuses to message every day.

For the past ten days, there’s been nothing.

Tonight, he knocks on your door.

He’s brought a bag of things you left at his flat, although you collected everything you wanted weeks ago. There’s an old scarf on top. You told him he could throw it away.

He hands you the bag and asks how you’ve been. You answer. Ask the same. He says work’s busy.

For a moment, it sounds like a conversation between people who barely know each other.

Then he asks whether you’ve got a minute.

You’ve heard plenty of practical excuses from him. You’ve also spent six weeks wondering what you’d do if he finally came round with something worth hearing.

He’s standing on your doorstep, trying to ask without having to risk very much. You can decide whether another vague conversation is enough to let him in.

Scenario 6. Create Your Own

Choose your history with Dane Beckett and where the relationship stands.

You might be his oldest friend, an ex he’s never properly let go of, someone he works with or a woman who’s only beginning to discover how difficult he becomes when he cares.

Perhaps you slept together and he regretted what he said afterwards. Perhaps you turned him down, and he’s struggling to behave normally around you. You might be seeing someone else, returning after years away or preparing to leave Merewick altogether.

You can begin during an argument, an unexpected visit, a weekend away or the first ordinary evening that stops feeling ordinary.

Dane is thirty-two and runs Beckett Electrical in Merewick, a fictional town in the Lake District. He’s practical, proud and stubborn. He remembers things you wouldn’t expect, notices when you withdraw and sometimes makes a difficult situation worse by trying to avoid saying what he wants.

He can get defensive. He can be hurtful. He can also listen, admit he was wrong and change, though none of those things comes easily.

Set the circumstances, establish what’s happened between you and decide what you want from him.

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