Hello, my dearies. Forgive me for saying this. But i will be on rest. I have been through a lot, i am going through multiple depression state. I cant let go of the trauma i have had back when i was a child. If you wnat to know...i was SAed or 🍇 as a kid. I didn't told anyone cause i was young and scared. I didn't know what to do anymore. I am scared. Back as a kid, i never really had good parents. They would yell, scream... Everything. Even for just a such small mistake. Each day feels like hell to me. I never want to hurt anyone. No. But i am scared that i might hurt them. Even though i didn't meant too . It hurts when people leave. Everyone already walked out on me. I dont.... I dont know what to do with life anymore...wish i could change my life to a much more happier life. I hope... Just hope that maybe things will change.i hate always being the cheerful, caring, happy person you know?.... The one that always had to listen to everyone problem. The one that always gets the blame, the one that always get forgetten and left behind. Is it worth living anymore? Is it still worth it?. I am tired...it hurts. Truly it did. I hate my life. Do you know how it felt to be used multiple times?.to be a toy of laughter in someone story?...oh how the excruciating the pain is. How much it cut me so deep that i feel like its an unrepairable wound. Forgive me. Really, my dearies. Forgive me if i talk too much, forgive me if was wrong in multiple things. Forgive me for being alive. I just want to say... I am sorry. Forgive me. Please... I am tired of being the blamed and someone toy of laughter... I might take a break from making bots. So i hope you all understand. Ill try to go to a psychiatrist or maybe a therapist again. Idk.