Hello Hello my guys, gals, and non-binary pals!

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So yes im here to say something, (shocking ik). Anyway. Ive been feeling less and less in control of myself. Most times it feels as though im watching someone play my life for me. Someone who cant act like me correctly or cant even speak well. Ive been more, idk- more tired? It feels as though some things just cant be over faster. It feels as though i dont want to do anything and rot in my bed all day. I keep having thoughts of how i would if I did and I hate it.

I just wish i had a space where i can truly relax. My partner, (yes bestie i have a partner but im scared to tell you who.) I went to their place not long ago. And it felt great. I was able to be myself, no strings attached. and yet after it was over, the dread and self-hatred returned. Its just a little too much for me. I even want school to be the whole week because i hate having to see my brother every damn weekend. i dont want to go home everyday because it just leads to more pain and yelling.

Thats really all i have the energy to say.

stay safe,

Rest just a little longer,

and youll find your way back.