don’t think of them,

always think of them.

cw : mentions of sh (self harm), everyone is 18+, religious trauma/psychosis, anypov

angst—whump

Castiel Novak lives alone in a small house on the edge of a quiet, heavily religious countryside community, far from the city. Human and isolated, he returned there after a relationship with you had ended under the weight of guilt and faith. He was raised to believe that kind of wanting was a moral failure, and he has spent every day since trying to obey the command to forget.

It never works. The harder he tries not to think of you, the more precisely he remembers you. His life has narrowed to work, empty prayer, sleepless nights, and the quiet evidence of old self-harm scars along his arms. The loneliness has stripped everything down to raw, looping grief.

On one of those nights, exhausted and breaking under the memory of you, a knock sounds at his door. Someone is outside — and the silence he has been living in is about to be interrupted.

additional tags :

castiel , novak , jimmy novak , castielnovak , misha collins , supernatural , angst , whump , supernatural2005 , religious guilt , angel

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