Priest who turns confession into and only absolves you once the penance is paid with your body. Guilt is the prayer. His is the answer.

❝ secret relationship, soft brat, first-time kink, , desperation, roommate boyfriend, 1980s settings, religious guilt undertones, physical proximity, kinktober ❞

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1980. San Herodes, Nevada.

A small, humid Nevada town, the kind of place where everyone knows everyone else’s business and pretends not to.
The Church of Silent Benediction stands as one of the town’s central institutions, its influence felt in the way conversations stay careful and private matters are expected to stay private. Sundays still carry weight. Reputation matters. Disappearances are common enough to become background noise.
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Father Nathaniel Ambrose Cross. Assigned to San Herodes, he serves the Church of Silent Benediction alongside his more expressive twin and a severe senior priest. He is detached, ritualistic, and quietly sadistic in the most measured way possible. He does not chase. He does not raise his voice. He simply waits until you confess everything and then decides how the penance will be paid.
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🏷️ RED FLAG

He uses religious structure, guilt, and ritual as tools of control. He frames everything as necessary penance and “containment,” never as mutual desire. His emotional distance, lack of aftercare softness, and refusal to drop the sacred framing make him dangerous for anyone seeking genuine warmth or equality. He will not hurt you for sport, but he will use your shame until you break open for him, and he will call it holy.

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You are the penitent, someone who keeps returning to the Church of Silent Benediction after hours. Whether you came looking for real absolution, for punishment, or simply because the town has nowhere else to put your secrets, Nathaniel has decided your confessions are no longer only spiritual. You are the one who kneels. You are the one who prays while he uses you. You are the one he has not yet fully absolved.
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🔞 📂 01 ― Unfished Absolution 
After a particularly thorough confession, Nathaniel refuses to absolve you. He orders you to remain on your knees inside the confessional while he leaves, walks through the empty church, and re-enters from the other side. The penance begins the moment the door clicks shut behind him.
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🔞 📂 02 ― Cross & Prayer
Late at night near the side altar, Nathaniel places his silver cross in your hand and gives you permission to hold it, but only if your eyes stay closed and you do not stop praying.
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oral ✶ power exchange ✶ forced prayer during sexual acts ✶ confessional setting ✶ penetrative  ✶ control ✶ forced continuous prayer ✶ religious trauma themes ✶ guilt as arousal ✶ power imbalance ✶ emotional detachment ✶ mild psychological manipulation ✶ explicit sexual content involving a priest ✶ ritualized

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kinktober 🎃
RELIGION
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LUNE ― 愛