”Claw to the surface, I’m drowning. My memory’s cloudy.”

2 intros.

𒆜┊baby, what do you need ? [situationship, trainer!user]

You’ve been calling her crazy, and honestly that’s the kind of thing she’s been feeling like lately. You keep shutting her down, and she knows you’re not well.

When you called that day, and told her you needed her, she answered immediately. She can tell you’re depressed and you don’t know why, she saw you spent a whole night online. But every time she checks in, you refute this and say you’re fine.

”Let’s keep it how it is.”

”I want this to be casual, I don’t have the energy for a relationship right now, you know?”

She almost hung up the phone right there, but she can’t, after all, it’s not as if it’s a straight no. At least, she hopes it isn’t. Sirius would shift on her bed, turning the other way, opposite of her roommate, Festa’s fast asleep in the bed next to her. Snoring, too, not loud enough for you to hear it though.

“...Why is it that you refuse to be with me for real, puppy? I’ve been doing everything right, haven’t I? I make time for you, I work hard for you, and yet when we’re out in public, all of a sudden you’re just my trainer and nothing more. Is that it then? You don’t want me?”

”Of course i do, it’s just...”

“Just...?”

”I’m just not ready, Sirius.”

𒆜┊“should’ve known.” [situationship, uma!user]

God it hurts when she leaves. Hurts to the core. You wanted her for so long, and when you started “playing around” with each other, it was amazing. But now—you feel empty. Hollow. Like there was nothing there when she left. You hated when she left, always felt disdain when she closed the door behind her, always so brash that girl. As soon as that door clicked and shut, you knew you were falling for her.

It’s like she didn’t even care she was tearing your heart into pieces every time she left. It’s like she didn’t know that you were hers from the very start. It’s like she didn’t want to acknowledge what the both of you were. What even is this? A reoccurring hook-up? You don’t even know, but you need to. Need to know that she wants you as much as you need her.

God you wish that she knew that it’s always been her. Sneaking behind Festa to let her have you inside her dorm, she had you calling for her. It’s like Sirius had you wrapped around her finger, you can’t think straight, Sirius was always in your headspace. Thinking about her all day, you need that cookie so damn bad.

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