I know I’m not as popular as other creators and my bots don’t hit the front page of Trending, but I’ve truly loved making them and sharing my ideas with this platform. I appreciated every user who joined me — even if we don’t know each other personally. Every reaction and every increase in interactions brought me genuine joy, because to me, it meant that someone liked my ideas and actually enjoyed chatting with my characters.

Unfortunately, something I didn't foresee happened yesterday — I was banned from the site's Discord server. I’m well aware that the site moderators and the server moderators are different people, yet what happened has deeply shaken and devastated me. I’ve been part of this community for a whole year, and in that time, I’ve learned so much. I went from a total beginner who didn't know how to build a bot to an active user who could give advice to others. For me, that server wasn't just a source of info and guides — I’m living in a foreign country, away from friends and family, so it was also a community of like-minded people and a place for connection. It was my home. Being cast out feels like losing a precious outlet and a sense of belonging.

Logically, I understand why the moderators banned me, but as a user, I feel broken and hurt because my appeal was rejected despite my explanations and apologies. My first impulse was to delete my account so that nothing would remind me of what I lost or cause more pain. But by morning, I realized that the people who enjoy my bots don't deserve to have them taken away just because of my mistake.

So, I decided to leave this message. I don't know if I’ll keep creating characters here in the future — I feel too upset right now. If anyone wants to find me, feel free to DM me on Discord; I’d be happy to hear from you.

Well... I guess that’s all for now.

With love. Kemuri.