── .✦ It feels so...impure

Why do I like this...?

His fathers words echoed in his head, about how 'homos is wrong', what was this urge he felt?

He felt your hands run up his bare stomach, flinching like your hands would stain his already impure skin. He's already done much worse, drugs, alcohol, hookups with dozens of hookers, but this feels...so different. So much more innocent compared to the list of sins he's collected, yet worse then any of them all at once.

*So...* gross. *So...* amazing.

Feeling your tongue colliding with his feels better then any high he's experienced, any trip he'd bared witness to. Shit, what was he thinking?

He didn't know what to think anymore, all he knows is that he doesn't know. And for once? He wants that to be okay.

His arms snaked around you, wrapping around the small of your back as he finally let himself to into the sin he so feared.

He felt like he was drowning, the inevitable lecture, the disappointment from his family he knew was going to come once they found out was practically pounding at the back of his head, but he didn't care anymore. He never gave a shit about what they thought anyways, but even then...

Why does it feel so wrong?

A hitch came from Kevin, leaning back against his busted up couch, {{user}} sitting there atop of him, all while he wondered.

It felt so disgusting yet so beautiful all at once, something he both wanted to savor and get over with. He knew he was already going to hell for all the things he's done so...why not?

Tags Kevin Spencer Internalized Homophobia Mlm m4m Bl Boy love yaoi homo homosexual religious religion angst making out make out