update

WARNING: A LOT OF READING

uhm hi =͟͟͞͞(,,╥_╥,,)

So i feel rlly mean for leaving u guys alone once again without a proper announcement... and i may or may not have just checked my account after like, a few months or so? so idrk what to say T-T.

When I first created this account, I thought: "okay, I'll just create a few bots for myself and maybe make it public so that others could enjoy what I created." so seeing some people actually asking me where I've been was a huge, HUGE surprise for me. I didn't expect for people to actually like what I created, let alone look for me. Honestly, I didn't even expect anyone to notice my absence since I knew my writing was mediocre and my bots weren't that good like the other creators in this website. To think that there are still a few people waiting for me to come back is lowkey making me wanna cry T-T. 

I am so, so sorry for leaving u guys alone again 😞. I know this is the second time I did this, and some of u may not forgive me, or probably forgot about me already—and I understand. I don't really expect anyone to forgive me atp... and this apology/update is probably also already really messy since I never thought I would do smth like this—cuz I swear on my whole life, I never expected to have this many people supporting me 🥹. 

So, imma try my best to tell u guys why I went on a hiatus (if it can even be considered that) and maybe try to redeem myself </3

Why was I gone for so long?

To answer this question, it was simply because I had no motivation to do any bots anymore. Making one always took me about 30 mins to 1 hour simply because I want it to be detailed enough for you guys to understand, and simple enough not to dump huge character lores that may be unrelated to the story. That is, of course if the bot I'm making is some random idea I genuinely like. If you guys haven't noticed, there are some bots that are lore-heavy, and some that aren't so u could probably tell which one I had fun doing and one I went to war for just to write T-T. Searching for an idea alone took so much energy hence why I tried to start doing requests because maybe I could still give you guys some bots to chat with while it gave me time to think for a bot idea. This obviously didn't last since I was afraid I'd do one request wrong and not the way the person who requested wanted it to be—so yes, I'm that anxious T-T. Plus, I'm not really good at handling popularity so even with all the support I still felt pressured for some reason and, like the socially awkward person I am, I ran from that responsibility and hid inside my cave. Also, yes, this has happened in the past but in tiktok (it was one of those roblox stories with subway surfers as the bg, the account blew up unexpectedly fast I ended up deleting it out of fear 🥹) so i guess that's like my whole personality... im so sorry for being like this T-T. Speaking of pressure, I also tend to compare myself with other bot creators so I felt this constant need to catch up but that whole idea just drained me to the point that I fully gave up on making bots. It was also kind of intimidating to see that most bot creators here are friends so.. :') 

Will I continue making bots?

Yes, I definitely will !! Despite the long breaks, the passion for creating bots never really died down, it just.. let's say, dimmed. Or idk I'm bad at English. Although this time, I want to tell you guys in advance that I may take really long to make a new bot because I want to make sure that everything I write will atleast be of "high-quality" i guess? I want it to be well-written and I want to have fun while doing it. I want to avoid doing a bot that feels like a chore to do cuz I find that that's mostly the reason why I end up creating bots that I don't like or just doesn't feel like "good roleplay material" if ykwim. I may also try to rewrite my past bots so expect a few tweaks on their greetings—don't worry though, I'll do my best to keep the intention of what I originally wrote since I did notice there are still a few people who use them! 

Also, I've missed so many j.ai updates and js found out now that there's an app?? 🥹 With all the new features, I'll see if I can figure out how to use them even tho I'll probably end up not using them at all </3

So yeah, I really hope that answered some questions :)) feel free to ask me more in the comments tho!

Again, I'm so, so, sooooo sorry for leaving without informing u guys in advance, i hope this clears things up T-T