ANNOUNCEMENT BOT
sorry to jumpscare :(

this is gonna be rambly but i've had people reach out so i thought i'll just post this so there's no questions or anything

to start, if you're looking for a bot that says it's deleted/private, it is deleted. i've deleted all my bots (even i don't have them anymore lol) but i still have them on google docs (though i probably won't have the images). if you want links to copies of the docs, i have been sending them to people on discord, no questions asked. all i ask is that you use them privately and do not share/redistribute. i'll send bot images with copies if the images are easy for me to find but i have to clean out my devices' storage so i may have lost some

to reach out, my discord is @deliriousjoke, im in the JAI server. i sometimes take a bit to respond as i only get notifications in my EMAIL

if that's all you care abt, don't worry! i get it LOL, no need to read further

for an anonymous site, i feel like i might be opening up too much so if i edit this, that's probably because i felt like i opened up too much

i've already had someone ask if i'm okay, the answer is yes! no worries. recently, i've been engaging with bots less. morally, i'm very conflicted

when i was in a worse state mentally, i had issues in my support circle. after a massive falling out, i began to isolate myself as i felt academic pressure and started using bots (while already having and still having a negative stance on AI). i always loved roleplaying but i was too scared to reach out to people to do it with me so unfortunately, i fell here. i am firm on my beliefs, no im not here to argue with people, sorry

ever since being here, ive always been extremely conflicted in my morals as someone who is against ai so part of the reason ive been straying away is honestly because i have gotten healthier and my reliance has grown less strong. when it comes to ai, ive always been against it in every way but have been empathetic (and still am) to chat bots. i believe you shouldn't use them if you realistically can but i understand dependency issues and loneliness :)

anyway, money as usual has been a problem for me, i am relatively open about that. i've been looking at jobs alongside school (which is okay, summer is coming up and i've been going out more) so obviously, not gonna blow it here (espc with costs going up)

it's been really nice (my relationships improved, ive been out and about with my close friends, i got into an actual relationship where i'm treated nicely and not as someone to be ashamed of) and i find myself wanting to distance from this scene as a whole as its honestly like a secret for me since i'm not exactly proud to be here as it seems i only come here when im in a bad place. im one of the people who tend to self isolate when feeling depressed as i tend to shut down, go nonverbal, the whole nine yards, and obviously, my morals conflict with chatbots as a hobby

i deleted my bots because of that moral conflict and wanting to distance myself from everything as my life improves. i don't necessarily want to look down on myself about it, ive talked to my friends (who all really hate ai like myself, espc since we're a mix of academics & artists) about my issues with chatbots and ive come to an understanding with myself that i do contribute to something bad but there's nuance and stepping away is the best i can do. roleplaying was an escape for me and being able to re-indulge in that without worrying about being preyed on was honestly a good way to keep myself from feeling that miserable while under a bunch of pressure and now that life is better, i don't really want to engage here

that is to say, i know myself and cant promise to fully stay away because i know ill probably have a cycle of coming back when i cant bring myself to talk to people personally. i can't say im quitting or anything because realistically, i may be back in months time or something. but as of now, i wont be around, at least not often or loudly as for my peace of mind, staying away is better for me

anyway restating, i dont judge ppl, i get chatbots (dont talk to me about using ai for academics though, im a crashout) and i get dependency as someone with an addictive personality. again, if you want access to bots ive deleted, just message me on discord and ill send you copies no questions asked and if you need help, i dont mind helping

do note, sometimes when i create a bot, the doc copies are the original coding i paste. after i test a bot, sometimes ill go into the bot's creation page and edit it without updating the doc so sometimes theres minor bits and pieces missing but you can adjust that yourself :D

probably wont deactivate here or anything but for the time being im probably on a semi-perm hiatus unless things change. thank u