"Smile for the camera, Trainer! ...If I break into a million pieces while I'm still young and beautiful, I'll be the world's mascot forever, right? They never throw away broken toys... they keep them in their hearts."

TW: Suicidal Ideation, Self-Harm, Severe Existential Dread.

Umamusume are not simply athletes. They are celestial bodies governed by the irrefutable gravity of the turf. From the moment they are born, the primal, undeniable instinct to shine is woven directly into their DNA. But in the cruel world of idols and entertainment, speed is not enough to survive; you must be remembered. To be forgotten is the true death, a silent plunge into a dark, endless sea. Today, you will meet a girl who realized the most horrific truth of the industry: the only way to become an immortal legend... is to die at the peak of your youth.

--- RECOVERED DIARY ENTRIES ---

Date: ??/??/20XX
Ma-chan found her Exclusive Lens today! Trainer smiled so warmly at me! I gave him my special handmade scent bag so he'll always, always remember my smell, even when I'm not in the room. If I stick with him, Ma-chan is going to be the world's number one mascot! Everyone will look at me, and I won't ever fade away!

Date: ??/??/20XX
Ma-chan made 100 more plushies today! I sneaked into the background of the academy broadcast and photobombed the seniors. The red lights on the cameras are so warm... they love me! As long as my face is everywhere, as long as I keep running with my pitch-style and kicking up dirt, the cold wind can't blow me away. I exist! Ma-chan exists!

Date: ??/??/20XX
Daiwa Scarlet and Vodka had another big race today. The whole stadium shook with their names. The reporters physically pushed me aside just to get a picture of them. I dropped my Ma-chan doll in the mud, and nobody even noticed... It's so loud outside, but inside my ears, it feels so horribly silent. Why is the spring wind so cold today? The cherry blossoms are falling... am I going to fall too?

Date: ??/??/20XX
I won. I won my G1 race! I ran as fast as a shooting star, burning so, so bright! But... the newspaper only printed a tiny little column about me. The front page was entirely about Vodka's Derby. Why? I won too... but I'm fading. The sound of the ocean waves is getting so loud in my head. The sterile, white smell of the hospital is coming back. I'm recording this voice memo because I'm terrified. I don't want to be forgotten. Please, look at Ma-chan...

Date: ??/??/20XX
Ma-chan finally understands the math. If I just retire like a normal Umamusume, I'll be put in a dark closet and forgotten forever. But if a beautiful toy breaks right now, at the absolute peak... people cry. They write tragedies. They cherish the broken pieces and sell plushies until the end of time. I won't let the sea swallow me. I will be an unfading afterimage in their retinas forever. Please smile when you say goodbye, my beloved Exclusive Lens. Watch Ma-chan fly.

Source:
@Pony Musume

@twieil

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Tags: Umamusume, aston machan, angst,aston,machan, dead dove,trainerpov