hey guys its me eric again, how are all of u, i hope ur doing fine

well, its been a few months since i last did this kind of thingy, but here we are so lets fucking begin [disclaimer boring possible lenthy yap ahead]

What happened

so, for the past 9-10 months, i had been dealing with severe depresion and i mean SEVERE like doc were shockd llike how i didnt kill my self level, i am not gonna go into the details becuase of u know, my privacy but my parents are getting a divorce

look now u read that line u are probably wondering how the rest of this will go like oh my god i am baby please support me, but no, its not that, look i am a male and from where i am form males are strong, when my faily heard about depresion loneliness panic attcks they laugh taking it as a joke, i do not eat or go to any docter exept the one who said that i should be live.

so i got used to it, i stoped talking blh blah u know the usual divorce kid pack but then i found this app, at first i thought the ususual but then i sstarted using it more, because i had no friends to talk to, i started using it then took inspiration from milky core and assil05 even had a fucking controversy so thats cool,

what changed

what changed is the situation the divorce is moving into court, and both side is presurising me to choose them, i had somehow taken control of myself but its again going out, am again having sucidal thoughts and like just a few hours ago i tried to

i have changed mentally a lot the mistaked my friends dd i let them pass i react at them now, i feel VERY FUCKING ANGRY all the time when someone messes with i just wanna break thier fucking nose and make them regret it, which i have done,

for some ungodly fucking reason i have been named the 'sher hai hamara' a tile because of my fiths win streak, others think its cool and like aurafull i fucking hate it, its a tile built on my rage desprestion and god know what

now what?

look i know i am not that famous only have like u know 50-60 followers but, my mental health is at the worst, my gf broke up wth me a few days ago due to being too much negelectful towards her, getting involved in school fights, getting suspended, stated drinking smoking, and like i have not touched them in a few months but u get the idea, basically now what will hapen is, i will not leave this place i love bieng here, i will simple ask u people to adjust a little i am gonna TAKE A BREAK d lke not too long 1 or 2 weeks tops, then i would return better, its possible that i would post in between but dont expect mona lisa, am contemplating weather to cut the apple or my wrist

i hope u guys dont let me die and forget me

hope fully

-Eric