Clerotica's update,

I've been gone for a while. But I think I atleast owe you guys the courtesy of knowing what happened to me and why I've been radio silent for the past days, weeks, and months this year. This is a lengthy read.

Here are some answers to some questions that may be on your minds right now.

» Where have I've been? - Living life as per usual. I've played demo 5 and done other things than bot making in my past time. It's not too far from my usual busy times as before, but things have definitely changed for me.

» Why have you stopped posting bots? - I stopped posting bots for a multitude of reasons.

Firstly - the reason why they were made. I first started out here to improve my writing skills, cope with my hypersexuality and other problems, and interact or play scenarios with my favorite character (Griefer) and others. Now that I've discovered more healthier ways of coping, I've improved writing, and there's also just drawing and other alternatives to playing with my favorite characters. Now that this purpose has been served I'm not sure what to do now.

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Second - the the process of making bots such as decorating, defining, refining, crediting, and testing, especially the initial message for both my own bots and requested bots. To be frank, I don't have much to complain other than the fact it's lengthy and surprisingly draining. For someone who's energy and habits are unwell and healthy, I found myself exhausted or staying up at night to make bots which affected my health overall.

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Third - my passion and enjoyment. Genuinely, I loved to write bots. I'm really proud of most of them, especially the ones I put effort to, and I do enjoy chatting with my own bots. But the more I reflected this year, the more I realized how I didn't get the same enjoyment as I did back then. More so that I was pressuring and pushing myself to work rather than my own freewill. It didn't feel as gratifying or passionate as it did before, which left me deeply unsatisfied and empty.

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Fourth is because of my other passions. I have so much more interests than writing. Don't get me wrong, writing is something I truly do enjoy. But I kept on pushing away other interests I wanted to do or explore- I was holding myself back, essentially. I couldn't get work on other my other fields done because I was so deeply engrossed in writing that I've neglected what else I wanted and that made me feel like I wasted my time on working on something that I personally didn't enjoy making.

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Fifth reason - I'm improving on my life in general. I've taken more walks outside, have friends who genuinely support me and distract me from my hypersexuality, and just over all been doing well.

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Sixth reason - Generative ai. I know it's hypocritical to say this and that it's not the best feeling in the world. It's not a very easy pill to swallow, but ai takes up a lot of electricity and water consumption which could cause major blackouts or anything like the sort. A website/app like this is like the lesser evil among other generative ai stuff since it legitimately helps people cope with hypersexuality and other mental disorders. I'm not the boss of anyone though, do what you want. But I'm sincere when I say I feel some guilt in the aftertaste of making or using these.

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Seventh reason - The rewrite. The rewrite updated a lot of the character's lore and dialog which makes bots that were in progress completely rendered as mischaracterization or inaccurate. Redoing everything from scratch is something I'm not fond or in favor of. Especially when writing is I don't get passionate about as much as before.

» What's gonna happen to my bot requests? - Requests I've accepted completely and promised will be done all in due time. Plenty of wips in my character lists are there, either lacking the decorations or initial message. Those requests I've said maybe to will have a 50/50 chance of being made of not.

» Can I still request things such as bots or proxy? - Yes, you can. Proxy will be granted once I see a comment that requests it and respond to it since it's literally just a click away. As for bots, you can, but don't get your hopes up. I will most likely ignore it or reject it, and if I don't, it will not be a quick delivery.

» What's the future of this account? - Unsure. But the way I predict it, is that it would probably be collecting dust and inactive on bot making aside from a miraculous bot every once in a blue moon. This is not a farewell or a greeting. This is an interlude before I get back on track again or when I crash and burn. May we be reunited. Not right now but maybe some day. If not, let us not mourn what could've been and instead smile for it had happened.

You are free to ask more questions, I will answer to the best of my ability. Goodbye for now and take care.