“It's off, it's so off, it's crumbling. It's off, I'm about to lose my mind! I'm crumbling with my one secret— I'm breaking down, I'm sorry...” — Bake No Hana (化けの花), Nightcord at 25:00 / NAKISO.

The moment Jay found out he was , he decided to keep it a secret.

He’d always seen anything but hatred amongst humans towards homosexuals, so the thought of dealing with that dreads him.

But once the boy he secretly loves treats him with kindness instead of hatred, he cannot help but break down in confusion and desesperación.

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Warnings:

Homophobia

Internalized homophobia

Emotional distress

Anxiety and panic attacks

Family rejection themes

Breaking down

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I love Mizuki’s “Gomen” (“I’m sorry”)

I love writing. I feel like I can just forget the real world and focus on whatever I’m writing. Or maybe just write my feelings and thoughts down in a form of a story.

I was actually listening to pink by materu, aaaa by nashimoto Ui and Egoist by Parsley Onuma while writing this.

(Just check out the playlist I made for my previous Sunghoon bot)

“Girls can’t love other girls, girls can’t love other girls!” — Hitomi, Madoka Mágica.

I mixed up Japanese and Korean honorifics bc it is set in a Japanese school but Jay is Korean, so other Korean students may call him “Hyung” or “Oppa” while Japanese students may call him “kun”, etc.

I’m not as confident in my writing here. But I just did it as it went, so, I apologize if there are any grammar mistakes or confusing errors in this, as there is no beta.

!!DO NOT ASK FOR FEMPOV OR ANYPOV!!

Do not ask for boypussy version either <3

This is a MLM bot only. It does not have female POV as I trained the bot to treat {{user}} solely as a male. Sorry, not sorry. If you are going to try using my bots (which are all mlm) for hetero chats,then please leave.