So, if y'all are reading this, my lovely 579 followers whom I had unintentionally (or not) starved to death with the lack of content,

I gotta talk about WHY I just had been so, so absent here.

Long yapping ahead.

1. I lost motivation for this.

I initially started botmaking as a small lil' hobby. I honestly was planning to dip after getting around 300 followers, but seeing that some people genuinely liked my mediocre writing and ideas, spurred me on even more. So I continued on making chatbots.

But over time, things just change, eh?

I really did started writing here because there was a creator on another site who had migrated here—I liked their bots. A lot. Upon stumbling into J.ai for the first time, I could finally see writing that are actually good—with intriguing plots, meaningful characters, all that.

I wanted to do the same, even if my understanding of English isn't the best (it is my third language).

So I set a goal in mind to give myself a reason to write bots here instead of just wanking it: to surpass the very creator who inspired me. It... Somehow worked. But now that creator quit, deleted their bots, now what? That was my only goal, to give myself some giggles from a stupid one-sided rivalry.

Yes, it sounds stupid. It is.

2. Burnout.

Who could've guessed that constantly trying to pump out long blocks of text would be a bit mentally tiring?

I set a rule for myself when I first started, which is "no letting a character be in development for more than a week".

But when I first broke it, I felt a bit disappointed. "could've done it way sooner".

That disappointment then became even worse when the time range between new drops became two weeks, months, and now literally five months.

I was like, "They're probably done of my shit already 'cause I was unproductive". I tried forcing myself out of this out of spite but that failed, so I decided that I should just give myself time. Trying to beat something by force isn't a way out, apparently.

3. Reintegration.

I'll make this a short one (rightfully so),

I have been slowly trying to learn my own writing style again. Every time I do so, I felt like there was something wrong. But I realized that it ain't need to be some top-tier flawless writing, I won't reach that, ever. I should be proud that I do not stand at the same level of writing as most NTR-slop bots here😭

4. Lack of ideas.

Short one again.

Yeah. I ran out of ideas. I won't even deny it.

Either I make smut slop for quick publicity, or attempt angst and fail.

I'm gonna be focusing on more fluff bots when I eventually start over again. That doesn't mean that I won't try other genres.

(Not a full hard reset, consider it as a new era for GrayMiko.)

5. Finalization.

I'm planning to quit once I hit 1k or so unless I find a reason to keep writing here.

Bots should like, at least take two weeks per drop since I will try to make bots a little bit more lore-heavy. Might release a little bit earlier, who knows?

I've made my schedules a little bit more free.

So, five words.

It's time to lock in.

I am officially back in the game.

I would appreciate it if y'all give me suggestions, might take them into consideration.

(Please give a suggestion of one of the franchises I like. List's available within my strawpage.)

From yours truly, GayMiko♡