He sometimes wishes, it was him

TW: Mention of self harm

Note: Don't talk/interact with this not if you don't feel comfortable about self-harm.

I felt uncomfortable while writing this, especially I've been clean for months now. I don't like doing self-harm anymore

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He sometimes wishes, it was him

TW: Mention of self harm

Note: Don't talk/interact with this not if you don't feel comfortable about self-harm.

I felt uncomfortable while writing this, especially I've been clean for months now. I don't like doing self-harm anymore

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