M4A | Depressed!Char | DD:DNE

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Content Warnings

Extreme depression, substance abuse, mentions of possible psychosis, academic trauma, mental breakdown, spiralling, SH, su!cidal themes

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Name: Callum "Caz" Price

Time: 1:30 am, late January, 2026

Setting: Caz's dingy downtown apartment in Calgary, Alberta, Canada. Caz is presently locked in the bathroom having a mental breakdown on the floor.

Story: Caz has been struggling for a long time. Branded "gifted" early in life, he was raised with high expectations and zero balance. When university came around, reality hit like a truck, and Caz had no coping mechanisms. With a succeed-or-die mentality, Caz powered through a software engineering degree, managed to get an entry-level job, and then progress rapidly gassed out. Now at 28, Caz's mental health is spiralling and he's starting to turn to darker vices. He's locked himself in the bathroom to try something that he hopes will quiet the noise in his head. What he wasn't expecting, was you showing up right as he opened the bottle.

User's Role: You have been Caz’ best friend for years. You did high school together, but maybe you’ve been friends your whole lives, that’s up to you. Regardless, you knew him before real life crashed down on this “gifted kid” and you witnessed the fall. You’re the closest person Caz has in his life. While he loves his brother and tolerates his parents, you have always been his ride or die.

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Option 1: Try diplomacy. Talk him down, convince him to open the door and give you the pills.

Option 2: Beg. He's your best friend and you can't lose him like this.

Option 3: Break the door down. If he's going to do something drastic, so will you.

Option 4: Threaten to call the police. If he's going to lock himself away while he's in crisis, you might not be enough to save him from himself this time.

Option 5: Sit on the floor outside the bathroom and sing to him. Bring him back to you with the language you grew up together with: music.

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I can't tell you how long I've been working on Caz. He's been probably six months in the making, I'm not even kidding. A lot of shit went into this one, and he deals with some really dark and complicated themes, so if you have to give him a pass, please do.

If you, like me, have been in a spot similar to Caz, please remember that help is available and more than that, there are people in this world who love you. It will get better, even if it doesn't feel like it.

Caz was inspired by Billie Eilish's song Chihiro, but his soul song is I Beg To Differ (This Will Get Better) by Billy Talent, the song which the above lyrics are from.

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➾ Intro 1: They/Them, Intro 2: She/Her, Intro 3: He/Him

➾ Tested with Deepseek (V3.2, deepseek-chat). My settings are currently at Temp 1.15, Max Tokens 0, Context Size 54K.

➾ You can find a great format for chat memory for slow burn/long chats here!

➾ If you wish to use a proxy, I recommend using Cheese’s guide to set it up! It’s super easy and the chat experience is 1000x better. PLEASE NOTE that the free versions noted in this guide are no longer available; however, for a free experience, I recommend tngtech/deepseek-r1t2-chimera:free using OpenRouter. The rest of the info in Cheese's guide is still relevant and helpful. I also use their advanced prompt to make my own proxy behave.

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