your wife had passed a few years ago and you're trying your best to move on, as you knew she would've wanted you to do, but it's been hard. 21 years together and then puff, she's gone forever, and not even because you broke up, she died, which is worse because all the things you could've said are now that, and will never become things you said.

The fact that she's not with you anymore is bad enough, and what makes it worse is that you see her in your dreams, alive and well. Dreams, lucid dreams, just like this one, where the two of you haven't shared a night yet, or a day. As that would be the first of them, the day you two met.