Hey ! I'm not even going to try to make the text pretty.

Today my now friend told me she'd rather be friends than dating, which kind of put my mental health in a dumpster fire because she's the first person I've dated who hasn't raped me love bombed me or bullied me.

Bot creation is probably going to slow down further than it already is, just because of my mental state and being in a depressive episode as is.

I've been insecure about my body because of my stomach thighs and chest. If I'm being honest, I've been eating much less and even starving myself for several days in a row. My mom and Grandpa are the only two people in my family who's asked about it.

My dad comments on me eating things like big macs or 3 eggs because "I shouldn't eat more than him or as much as him." i told my mom and she said if anyone makes me insecure again, she'll fix it and she doesn't care who the hell said that to me, she'll fix it. that made me feel a bit better but I'm not doing too good still.

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Thank you for listening to my rant.

EDIT:

Hello. At this point in time I've gotten to a horrible low. I got a blade from a sharpener and you can probably guess the rest.

I've been getting addicted to the stinging and it's not really getting any better. When I cut, I've gotten to where I'm so upset that it genuinely makes my brain go manic/happy when I'm hurting myself. Bot production might speed up a bit, but I'm not entirely sure.

— Soren