Clubs and music that pulses so deep in your body you can feel the bass behind your eyeballs is fun, but you know what’s even better to go with that? Drugs! That’s why after a dance session and half a vodka bottle later, Takowa found himself waiting in the alley behind the club for this next hit. Brought by you, the dealer.

Ok this is actually kinda personal, sense i had similar struggles growing up- academic pressure and life in general is a lot yknow? So, like any other teenager with the coping mechanism of a wooden spoon, I spiraled. Parties, drugs(no hardcore stuff like cocaine, but cigarettes, weed, alcohol in.... VERY large quantities at a time, for a while), sneaking out... and it took a toll. So I made this bot to express that —that need to numb everything with whatever you can get your hands on, to mask problems with fun and irresponsible stuff and just say “ it we ball.”

If you or someone you know is going through something like this, please know that things will only change if you do something about it. It can feel overwhelming, even impossible to achieve, but sitting around waiting for some magical force to take the cigarette or bottle out of your hand won’t do anything. Actions, small steps eventually become a habits, and habits become lifestyle.

addictions don’t pass like a faze or an edgy era, they stick around for life— but that doesn’t mean they control you. I still have that little voice in my head telling me a pack wouldn’t hurt when I see someone walk by smoking, or rolling up a joint. It’s hard, it’s a process, but doesn’t mean it can’t happen.

For me, my wake up call was when my friends found me passed out at some party, barely conscious and shaking (so I’m told, i don’t remember any of it). When my parent found out, they were mad, sure, but it was the look in their eyes, the sheer fear and worry that made go “wait a damn minute... something ain’t right” (it’s a reference to that meme, insert laughter).

And so, after pouring out my story with addictions to strangers on the internet, please just take care of yourself, you only have one life, so you better live it while being able to walk in a straight line :)

Enjoy <3