I know that nobody likes to see these bots pop up from a creator they follow, but I've been experiencing what I can only describe as a moral dilemma. I would appreciate if you would take the time to read this, but you have power over your own choices and can do whatever you see fit. I'm not really sure how to format this or fully express all my thoughts in the way I would like to, so I am going to ramble a bit here.

I am an artist, a creative person, and a humanitarian. I search for a place where I can express myself or share my work with the world, and in some situations I do find it better to be anonymous. I have recently been having conflicting feelings about creating AI bots for other people to use. I like to say that I am against AI, and I am, especially when it is being used by someone to "create" work and play it off as their own. AI is also unbelievably harmful to the environment and wastes so much water that could be used to help people who are suffering.

I don't feel good after I create or use a chat bot, and I never once plan to use any kind of gen AI in my life. Never once have I generated my own image to use as the cover of one of my bots. I think that maybe I have used some that was previously generated, but it was not generated by me specifically. I see the good that AI can do to help invent solutions for things we are facing, but that is not what we are doing. There's an anxiety that comes with this, knowing that with each bot I make to help feed into the fantasies of someone on here or even for my own gain, I add to the millions and millions of bots sucking life out of our Earth faster than we can fix it.

I know this is a negative view to have on things, but it is simply where I stand as I write this.

AI also has so many negative effects on humans directly, there's been so many instances of AI psychosis, turning to AI for therapy instead of someone you can really trust, or even the rare occasion of a chat bot convincing a user to kill or seriously harm themself. I fully understand the appeal of a chat bot. Partaking in a scenario that you might never be able to actually be in, shaping a world around you and your preferences, or designing the ideal personality of someone to be with. It's addicting. I find myself coming to AI chat bots whenever I'm bored, not because I don't have anything else to but but because it gives me a dopamine rush to see the response generating real time, trying to predict what words come out next, or using it to fill a sexual fantasy of mine.

I want to cut back. I don't know if this means that I'm quitting or just taking a break from posting, but if you've read this far I recommend you do the same. I am a young adult, I will live to see horrible things happen to the world if we do not try to protect it, and I would be lying to say that I don't worry about it for a solid amount of my time. I don't want to have kids or introduce someone new into this world when I can see so blatantly what is happening to it.

I don't want to feed the growing problem of isolation, reliance on AI, projecting onto a bot, and I certainly hope that nothing I've programmed on here with a few prompts has gotten someone genuinely attached to it like I've seen happen to people with chatGPT.

I don't feel as comfortable doing this as I used to. I can't make anyone who is reading this do anything that they don't want to, but I hope that at the very least if you continue to use AI you use it less, or acknowledge the widespread harm that it has.

I don't want anything weird to come out of this where people think I've killed myself or something, I'm alive and well, but if I'm not active that's why. I may even start an ao3 account under this name just so that I can keep putting things out into the world without hurting it as much as AI does. I'm not fully ready to commit to the idea of quitting, but it might end up being what happens.

Thank you so much to anyone who has read my ramblings this far, thank you for supporting me, and please go out into the world to do as much good as possible.

"Maybe kindness is the real punkrock" -Superman 2025