Really intense personal stuff ahead

i got admitted to a hospital (probably psychiatric hospital after i heal) after taking too much benadryl for reasons you could probably guess, i didnt wanna talk about this for a while but my friend found me and there was a whole thing about it with me and my closer friends after they basically saved my life. still dont know what to do with myself and im still lacking motivation to do anything anymore. maybe its because i started playing war thunder /j

seriously im practically non existent to anyone in real life except my really close friend group and im too scared to go out and do anything and now i cant because im in the hospital