⚠︎Killing Stalking spoilers⚠︎

after literally stalling for 6 years I finished reading it..

so..yeah..back in 2020 I started reading it after I watched some funny yt video where a guy explained the whole plot but kinda only mentioned how they constantly had . it was so incredibly hilarious that I was like..yeah, let's check it out.

btw, I tried to find the video but I think it's not public anymore. and no, I never finished watching it because I didn't wanna get spoiled too much.

my first time going through it I only managed to go to the part with the centipede. mind you..at that time I wasn't actually into that whole dark stuff. I don't really remember anymore..but I can imagine that I struggled a bit because I might've felt uncomfortable?

anyway..after I dropped it I went back 2 times. the first time I had already forgotten why I dropped it and yeah..dropped it at the same exact chapter lmao. the second time I didn't even reach it. I stopped at the chapter where they went to the hut in the mountains.

anyway..last wednesday I went to our local book hut or whatever where basically everyone can drop off books they don't want anymore and anyone can take what they want. I found volumes 1, 2, 3 of season one as well as volume 6 of season 3 of killing stalking (I also found a box with volume 1-4 of bj alex, but that's unrelated lol). I got interested again.

(I would've showed a picture but the moderation didn't let it go through because of the "blood splatters" on the covers. so annoying)

then the next day I showed my friend. I told her that I knew Sangwoo was going to die because I've seen a lot of memes of that before but somehow I always dodged the spoiler of how. my friend looked it up and she said it's really stupid and laughed. I wanted to know but at the same time I didn't because I wanted to find out through reading. she told me to read it or she'd spoil it.

so that's how it began..I read all of it in one day except for the last chapter. the website I was reading it on had some special feature that played music or sound, dunno. I couldn't find it so I contacted support. since they haven't replied until today I got impatient and read it anyway.

oh boy..I hate that ending so much. and if I'm being honest, I feel like the stockholm syndrome somehow got to me too. I hate that he's dead. and I fucking hate that grandma. I already yapped to someone I'm close to about this..but bro, if she was alive? no. I would do the same thing to her. just take sleeping pills if you can't sleep. ffs. I hate her so much and I cannot understand how Bum didn't get upset with her.

anyway..I cannot put in words how I couldn't believe he was actually dead. sure, he was a bad person, but that wasn't his fault. I'm blaming his mom. also..I think it was a nice callback to the promise they made in some earlier chapter when Bum died. I know it was off-screen..but the implication was there. just a reminder in case someone doesn't remember..basically Sangwoo asked Bum to kill himself if he ever were to die. yeah..

my conclusion? I think the hate that this receives is completely uncalled for. I get that some people are not into it, but come on..the warnings are there so just don't read it. I was uncomfortable the first time reading too (at least I think I was) but I never went on comments and was like "eww, you like reading that?" no matter what people try to say about it, I think the writing is amazing, even if I hate the ending. kinda gives me aot flashbacks ngl lmao.