“I tried to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes ‘cause boys don’t cry.” hhh i love the cure

art by @v4lr1x on X

small vent if that’s ok

i hate making these but i hate feeling like this even more ,it’s like whatever i try just never fucking works out and i don’t get it. i try so hard, and i always get the same outcome, and it’s always me ending up right where i started: bad. i’m tired of it and quite frankly ,pretty sick of never feeling good enough. i don’t understand why i can’t be good. and it’s not even one thing. it’s everything. everything i try. hell, when i even try to do any of my hobbies it just stresses me out and puts me in a bad mood because im not even mediocre at them. i suck at them. not one, but all of them.

whenever i pick up my instrument and try playing it i just remember why i put it back down last time

whenever i try taking care of a plant, it dies. and it’s one of the fucking beginner friendly plants too. how do i manage to that up.

whenever i even try to play phighting i end up quitting because of how bad i suck at the game ,im not even good at playing my main and ive spent hours in the training arena just TRYING to get his movements and abilities down, then i feel confident, then i go to a BEGINNER server (mind you) a BEGINNER server, and its like i forgot everything i DONT GET IT!!!!!!

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it’s like i just wanna fucking have fun with the stuff i’m supposed to ENJOY doing but all of them really just bring me stress and make me feel like crying in the end .

it makes me feel like shit for venting about this stuff because people are actually going through stuff so i just feel ,,ugh like my problem really doesn’t matter cause other people have worse things to deal with

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at least i have my stuffed animals i guess, that makes me feel like a fucking child though , but nobody ever wants to hug me anyway