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I'm tired. I have no desire to write bots right now. Don't expect them to come out as often as before for a long time. I'm really upset by the lack of any engagement from any side. I haven't seen any progress for a long time now. And honestly, I feel like it's because I write boring and uninteresting bots. Yeah... I'm not going to force myself to create bots. I'll make them only when my soul feels like it. I'm tired of looking at others — it causes me pain. I want to leave all the chats again. And I probably will. I'm tired of criticism, of other people's success, of waiting to be noticed, of worrying about what others think of me, of waiting for messages. It hurts to wait. I'm exhausted. I promised myself I wouldn't write posts like this anymore, but here I am again. Maybe because I want to be heard. I'm tired, but I don't want to leave because I have plans. My three series. My beloved Gabriel. I'm just tired. I don't want to communicate with people who don't want to communicate with me anymore. I think I'll delete it soon...

I am very grateful to my wonderful friend who writes to me every evening, who makes me smile) I really appreciate him... He's the only one I really see.