It's my birthday, finally. I'm not sure why I wanted to announce it but, probably because I feel bad having not posted for months?

It feels a little surreal and I'm just gonna be a bit personal here but; I genuinely didn't expect myself to live this long.

I think that little dreaded guilt just really gripped at me knowing I was getting closer to that point and still not.. Yk.

It's been really nagging me and I've been on and off with writing, I wish I had the motivation too, depression really just hits you like a train when you least expect it.

On a lighter note I wanna celebrate quietly, watch a movie with friends, maybe post a bot of my fave character as a gift for myself.

If not then, maybe January will be a good start, try get my life up and running again.

Love you guys a ton all the support means a whole bunch to me, I appreciate the patience as well.