Is it just you and me in the wreckage of the world?
That must be so confusing for a little girl
And I know you're going to need me here with you
But I'm losing myself, and I'm afraid you're going to lose me too

Remember You (Omnichord) - Trillian

If yall are just here for my bots just know I'm working on a Yelena bot and will do my 1k announcement bot after that (sorry for being off the site as well and not replying to comments)

Content Warning Again For Yall (sorry this is the first thing you need to see from me since I hit 1k)

I miss them all so badly, like so badly and I'm not just relating to the devasting news I've heard of the gentle and beautiful soul that we all lost here recently, I'm meaning for all of my friends that I couldn't be enough to stop them from committing the ultimate price. I say that specifically as for most of them I was the only person there for them but it's horrible and sickening to know that I was never enough for all of them.

Now how I have been going in my long and stupid break, horrible would be the best way to put it. A few things that have been happening to me to put those in an easier to see image is that I have been consistently crying myself to sleep every night so much so I can't remember the last time I didn't do it. The other thing is the only family member or hell only person ever who has told me that they love me said to me with almost pure disgust in their voice and face,
What is wrong with you?
And to be honest, I don't know what is anymore.

Anyways moving onto the more important matter is that no matter what happens every single one of you matters. And yes and especially you reading this. Now you might be thinking why is this hypocrite saying this shi and I would say it's because I truly do believe all of you are important and special in your own unique ways. And if you can't handle it by yourself, try and find someone who can help you with it. And despite the common beliefs, it has been proven that crying every now and then and not bottling it up can help relieve stress emotions so don't forget to cry.

Most important point I want to say and one people seem to forget online especially these days, try and be kind. Many you may feel don't deserve it and it may not lead to any benefits but being nasty, hateful or mean online will only lead to even more repeating negative emotions. So yeah final message for yall is to be patient on me and try and stay positive in every aspect of life while I recuperate, much appreciated if you can for me 💚