(vent below, small tw(?))

i dont know where else to vent so i want to put something here. i feel better doing this because its not directed towards anyone. i feel weird in my own skin. i want to satisfy everyone but i cant so i decide to shut everyone out and keep my emotions to myself. i hate this it sucks and i have no non-self destructive coping mechanisms. i want to die but im scared of what happens after i do

im still working on requests im just feeling like shit and dont want to write anything