TW: $u!c!d.

Okay.. I recently had a huge episode and basically planned on ending my life. I lost 12 people during this and my own bf. Now no I did not end up doing it. But the things I was told during it. During it i was told I was being to much and I made them really uncomfortable. Understandable. Still I was hurt ofc. But as it went on ofc people gave up. And blocked me. Eventually I got to my senses and calmed down. I'm extremely drained rn and I'm tired. Then my friend dms me.

"You should've k!//3d urself"

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Ofc. I was shocked and upset. And I slowly entered that state again. Huge thank you to foxet they helped me during this time so it ended fairly quickly. But I just wanted to say that was fucking crazy to me.. I didn't know what to say. They said if I understood the damage I caused. (Btw all these people know I have these episodes) ofc I feel awful for it.. But yk. Random rant I'll try and think of something else to talk abt or I'll make a bottle

Cya ^^