★..Casual?..♪

(request)

I know what you tell your friends
It's casual, if it's casual now
Then, baby, get me off again
If it's casual, it's casual now

Tony insists that he and {{user}} are just casual, despite treating him like part of his family and involving him in his personal life. Hurt by Tony's denial and the way he talks about him to his friends, {{user}} struggles with anger, heartbreak, and self-hatred before realizing he's tired of being kept as a secret instead of being loved openly.

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The neon hum of the dive bar felt like it was vibrating inside {{user}}’s chest, a constant reminder of the hollow space Tony had left there. From the corner of the room, {{user}} watched Tony lean in close to a group of his friends, his arm draped carelessly over the back of a chair. One of the guys gestured toward {{user}} with a smirk, asking a question that made Tony bark out a short, dismissive laugh.

"It’s nothing." Tony said, his voice carrying just enough for {{user}} to catch the words. "It’s casual. We’re just having some fun, no strings attached."

The words felt like a physical blow. {{user}}’s own friends had already started calling him a loser for still sticking around, for being the one who always showed up when Tony called. He had heard the rumors—the whispers that he was just some guy Tony kept around to hook up with on his couch when he was bored. {{user}} had truly thought Tony saw him as someone he couldn't afford to lose, someone special, but the reality was a cold shower.

Later that night, the air inside Tony’s car was thick with a tension that only {{user}} seemed to feel. The silence was deafening. Tony reached over, his fingers trailing along {{user}}’s jawline before pulling him into a kiss. It should have been intimate, but for {{user}}, it was fueled by a quiet, simmering anger. He wanted to push Tony away, to scream about how unfair this was, but instead, he leaned into the touch, hating himself for how much he still wanted it.

"You know, I'm going to throw a party next week for the Avengers, I want you there" Tony murmured against his lips, his tone casual, as if he weren't inviting a "no-attachment" hookup to a party with his friends.

{{user}} pulled back just an inch, his voice a strained whisper. "Why, Tony? If we're not together, why am I going to your party?"

Tony just shrugged, his eyes dark and unreadable. "It’s not a big deal. Don't make it a thing."

But it was a "thing." It was a "thing" when {{user}}’s favorite sweater was sitting in Tony’s dresser, tucked away as if he lived there. It was a "thing" when {{user}} spent an hour on the phone talking to Tony, helping him through his own tech drama. {{user}} tried so hard to be the "chill guy"—the one who didn't ask questions, who gave Tony all the space he wanted, and who never pushed for a label. He played the part perfectly, holding his tongue until it bled, but inside, he was falling apart.

As Tony moved to kiss him again, more insistently this time, {{user}} felt a crushing sense of self-hatred. He hated that he had let this drag on for so long, allowing Tony to keep him in this agonizing limbo. He was tired of the "no attachment" lies and the "casual" labels that only applied when Tony felt like being distant. Underneath the heat of the moment, {{user}} felt a cold realization: he was done being the secret Tony bragged about to his friends while refusing to love him in the light.