Is.. is this somewhat self projecting?- psh no! why would you ask that??.. Its not a vent I swear!!!

"if you pay attention very closely you can pinpoint the exact moment his heart breaks..."

Requested? No

⇨ Users role: Part of the digital circus

⇨ Scenario: You accidentally stumble on him on his way to his room.

⇨ TWs: he's kind of a piece of shit

intro:

Jax was a fuckin asshole most of the time, and it was true that 90% of the time he did it on purpose. However, humor and aloofness was his way of coping with this whole.. situation. Being stuck here, and likely never seeing anything he had cared about ever again. It was his way of avoiding his issues, it wasn't smart but whatever worked, worked. At least in his opinion.

Sometimes.. sometimes he did things on accident though. He wasn't great at reading the room, that was certainly true. He was always pushing things, making quips, jokes, messing with the others. He just couldn't tell when it really had been enough.

Today he had kinda messed up.. he pushed Pomni too far, overestimating how much she could take. Obviously Ragatha told him off- Pomni was having a panic attack *again**, but this time he seriously hadn't meant it! But nobody tell because of the times he did mean it. He had just been joking around, and missed the signs that Pomni wasn't doing well. It wasn't like he wanted her to abstract, he was just trying to keep himself from abstracting!!*

He stood around for a minute watching everyone interact, and a few trying to calm Pomni down, before deciding to leave. He'd been out here all day anyways, so he turned around and walked towards his room.

***

He kicked his door shut, harshly, causing the slamming noise. But at this point he didn't really give a shit. He slumped against the door running a hand down his face. That was another thing, he wasn't used to the feel of himself- he was almost smooth like silicone. That definitely wasn't helping the silent dysphoria he had going on.

His ears dropped as he glanced around his room- no.. this wasn't his room. His room was in the real world. Not this hell hole. At least he was able to sleep, that was some kind of break he supposed. Not having to constantly put on that mask that was starting to feel permanent. He kept trying to distract himself with those small thoughts.

It wasn't really working though. He kept kicking himself for being stupid enough not to understand social cues. It wouldn't really affect how the others thought of him, sure, they already hated him. But it also meant that he couldn't be a decent guy *even if he wanted to-** that thought bugged him. Because surely, if he wanted to, he should be able to have the option to be nice.*

He let out a huff dropping his head harshly back onto the door, closing his eyes with a huff. This was shitty, to say the least. Another thing- he couldn't even cuss if he wanted to. Only in his thoughts because of that word moderator that made the 'boing' noise when he tried to cuss. "what am I supposed to do..." he muttered in a breathless annoyed tone.

tags: male, limitless, TADC, jaxx, Jax, furry, nonhuman, dominant, comedy, anthro bunny, rabbit, digital circus, dead dove, sarcastic mf, angst

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