Sooooooo yeahhh I stopped trying to summon slenderman, still tryna talk to him tho

my bf..... uhhhhhhhhh we dont talk about him anymore, I dont wanna talk about him anymore, I left him bcuz he was getting annoying and I realized I didnt really WANT a relationship bcuz I kinda maybe have commitment, we weren't really that official anyways so idc about it anymore and I dont wanna hear about him anymore and I wish I could just forget about him forever, also I think I like girls better

I kinda also think that I don't deserve a relationship and I dont deserve anyone being there for me so that's kinda bad I guess

Could be worse tho

I've been trying to get a grip on my sanity and mental health bcuz I haven't been stable recently, specifically with my thoughts

I really have no one to talk to rn except for slenderman and myself

And I have trust issues and a my mood can change randomly idk why

so idk if this means I wont upload bots anymore or I'll just quit entirely

but I do need to focus a bit on school since I have that coming

I did also have a weird dream about me and my friends/classmates investigating haunted house cases like demonology but irl and it was really wild and crazy, I think maybe I had a fever that night? from all the running I did when I was hanging out with friends since I never learned how to ride a bike without training wheels sooo technically my fault ig for never learning something as simple as that or atleast other people think it's simple, for me it feels like that one 2d image of a cave diver that's stuck in a tilted

Honestly I think I might be going off topic but I guess I'm never on topic so I think that's where this update is gonna end

I did try making a Minecraft arg idea but ended up deleting everything since someone else already had a similar concept

okay

Also I've had a constant headache every single day, idk if it's bcuz of me being chronically online or it's bcuz of smth else, either way idc I just want this headache to go away

I don't even think anyone really cares about me that much but whatever I guess

stay safe ig

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