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Idia is probably one of my favorite characters because I can totally relate to him. I have terrible social anxiety, which usually makes me have a dumb stutter slip up or mess up a word, and I also have introversion and a small social battery life. I can talk more easily online when texting or even interacting in comments, but in person, I'm just brain-dead on what to say. I also hate when random people force me to talk to them and hold me hostage inside a conversation that I am deeply questioning.

I'm trying to lead into something, can you see? I need to trauma dump this to someone; I haven't told anyone close to me about this. Feel free to skip this rant if you want to get to the bot:

I swear, I think today was the day (as of writing this on Apr 11th), I was most scared and awkward for a while now. I have terrible social anxiety, so I hate those people who stand on the sidewalk and stop to talk to you about things and try to get your signature, even if you tell them you're busy at the moment, they continue to go on, and sometimes even follow you till you get out of bounds in the map they are limited to.

I was walking out of a boba shop with two in my hand since I was bringing one back for my mom at home, and get this, I've been scared to walk alone for a while now due to an incident that happened once that freaked me out. I finally got accustomed to walking alone a year ago because I'm a grown-ass woman, and I decided that I should start to walk by myself now, since that's what a normal functioning adult should do.

Tell me why this man (who I think is one of those people trying to get a signature or talk about an issue, he was in a group of people wearing the same shirt), asks me "oh did you get that for me?" my mind was lagging like, how do you think I would buy something for you if i've never seen you before until exiting the shop? And then he held his hand out and kept trying to get closer to me to grab the drink? I just thought of it as a joke, so while I was pulling the drink away from his range and closer to me, I was like "haha...oh um, no...it's for my mom," and he was like "I'm your mom" in a serious tone, no hesitation. No, no, you're not! It was so weird and awkward, I was trying to leave as soon as he asked, but he kept trying to talk to me and continued to walk up to me with that open hand as if trying to take the drink. I just had to awkwardly laugh and speed walk away before he could say anything else. I'm sorry, but who opens up a conversation with that? You're scaring me away before you can even get a signature and talk about what you need it for 😭

Like, if you're trying to get my signature for something, just ask me so that I can kindly tell you I'm busy today and do my weird little social anxiety speed walk. Don't hold me hostage in a weird conversation by following me and not stopping when I'm using my face to show a "what the is this conversation you started?" (eyebrows were creased as hell, and frown was as down as I could get it)

Safe to say, I walked fast all the way home, and I might take a while before even wanting to go out alone again without someone to handle those conversations for me. (grown adult btw, I'm definitely a loser. make fun of my ass all you want for not being able to handle conversations with random people when it's not ordering food or something small 🫡)

Note: Now that I'm typing this out, it seems like a joke I made up because no one talks like that to a stranger, but I tell you guys that it was 100% true. My cortisol levels are high, and I'm now wondering if I'm somehow having a fever dream or if I imagined that whole entire thing. Now I know that I should probably just carry something on me in my purse for safety, just in case. And also that I should be more nonchalant and shouldn't give more leeway for a conversation that could potentially cause something wrong to happen.

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Anyway. Please take this Idia bot as I stare off into the void and just cleanse my mind with no thoughts.

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Also, I got the Hercules/Megara RSA dorm name from here. I'm thankful that we have these JP server players who post these facts and translations for us. I was digging everywhere for the dorm name.