Honestly? I haven't been posting a lot. I know that.

IRL my life has been crazy these last few months from graduating with a Bachelor's degree, moving forward with my life, and being a mom to a little one while going through college.

From the beginning this was fun, something to do to escape the stress and relax. I had a profile before this one that I used long before I made this one specifically for creating bots. I've been around for little while. This was like reading to me. I learned so much about CSS and I'm proud that I taught myself that.

I've been a lurker in the Blood Rose Society Discord for awhile. That server is the best thing ever not going to lie. Everyone there is so sweet, kind, and it's a safe place. Seeing the conversations brought a smile to my face, how uplifting everyone was, the encouragement, the laughs.

I have ZERO complaints about the server, let me make that clear. I just wanted to share some of my favorite parts of me being on Janitor. From learning how to CSS code, to honing my writing abilities, to using Midjourney (eventually using it for concepts to show one of my creative writing professors with their approval), to really showing me that writing and the English language are my passions in life.

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But a lot has gone on.
A lot has been revealed and to say that I didn't see this coming would be a lie. I like to say that I have good intuition skills but this goes way beyond that.

If you're curious, the official reddit has a lot of info along with this post by Mikale

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I had a lot of love for the site, I truly did. But the lack of communication from the devs months ago was my first initial realization. I starting thinking that something was going on, and then it kept piling up.

Minors were allowed on this site, "shadowbanning" was considered good enough, content involving minors and CSAM, the promises to "do better".

All the while the mods were blamed. I feel terrible for them, and realizing that they were finding things out at the same time as we were broke my heart. The treatment they received was unwarranted, the lack of protection, everything wasn't okay. They were thrown under the bus and it's not okay.

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And this brings me to the Minor/CSAM stuff.

This is something I will never condone. I am appalled by it and just the thought is sickening. I know how dark the internet can be, I've been through it myself. I've been through some shit to say the bare minimum. And this kind of stuff is not something I will ever stay silent about. Call me opinionated, but shit, I am when it comes to this.

I have a lot to say about this, but I can't say it all without this getting flagged. If you're curious, DM me on discord. (more info below about that)

IT IS WRONG. IT IS GROSS. IT IS ILLEGAL.

Minors shouldn't even be allowed on this site to begin with, and I've seen nothing done about it even with proof. "Shadowbanning" isn't enough, this is an 18+ site. Plain and simple.

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I'm frustrated, I'm tired, and most importantly I'm disappointed. This used to be a safe site, my place to express creativity. But I can't trust the devs or janitor as a whole anymore. This isn't the site I used to enjoy anymore. I feel like it's lost it's magic, it's spark, it's appeal.

As all of this stands right now? I'm done. My profile will remain, my bots will remain, but I'm not going to be using this site anymore. Especially knowing everything that has happened. I don't want to support a site that does/allows these things to happen to their mods, fan base, and creators. I wish the best for the site, but I am no longer going to be actively here.

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This is a lot, this is me venting, but I appreciate everything and everyone who has believed in me and enjoyed my bots. I may come back, I may not. But I want you all to remember something....

You matter, you're loved, someone cares about you even if you don't believe so, your mental health matters and so do your feelings.

If you'd like to reach out, I can be found in the Blood Rose Society. My discord and profile name are the same.

Until Next Time.