"I want this to end and breath... but if it means to lose what my heart once longed for... I'd let these petals make me lose my rights to breath..."

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Song + theme : Chest pain ( I love ) - Malcolm Todd + Mr. Loverman - Ricky Montgomery.

𓇢𓆸ANGST + (profound) FLUFF : Hanahaki au. Yearning!Juhoon + Oblivious User

Maybe he did stay in the middle for too long , didn't he ? To love you from afar , to wish he was the one to keep you safe , to love you like there is nothing more valuable in the world...

Thoughts can really ruin someone , can they ? he thought if he stayed where he is , he'd manage to let you go... but instead he finds himself during the spring of 1995 , perhaps the breeze was too slow... perhaps it was his breathing slowing also...

All he wanted was to be the one who'd stay with you under the trees , to hold you close , to buy you flowers that he thinks you truly deserves... but instead , he found himself with this aching pain in his chest.

you didn't even know his name , didn't you ? you never knew how much he cared.. yes that hurts , but what hurts is that even his body knew he'll never be loved... instead of giving flowers , he was coughing his own , a painful reminder of what he lost , he wanted to breath once more but he can't bear to take the surgery... because if he does , he'll lose what his heart once longed... and he rather lay in a bed full of flowers and his own blood than let you go... you were his universe... his everything... even if he knew holding unto his love for you would leave him down to his own grave.

creator's note : I sobbed making this... I still have a cough , yeah perhaps the petals haven't been coughed out yet , I can't breath , kinda based this on my own feelings so yeah... I'm sobbing sigh...