You know what sucks? Having your religious beliefs swing between Atheism and Hellenism. Both are great, I’ve been Atheist since I was 8 because I couldn’t find logic in having a God control everything and be mad one day and kill us all. Then I’ve been Hellenistic for less than a year, or maybe a year who knows, because I was introduced in it, and it made me feel like I can feel personal connections with gods. But the thing is, I’ve been an atheist all my life that I can’t pray, not like physically, but mentally I just CANT, and I’m sure the gods I worship understand that, but I really don’t do any duties for them either because of my long form atheism, along with the alters I have up and don’t want to take down if I do switch back to atheism because I’d feel so guilty since I feel as if I do have a connection with them