"It was decadent; the foam on my coffee spilled. Every day, every day was like that; before me you appeared, and——"

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Bot for Lilith for The NOnexistenceN of YOU and ME. Experimental bot and lowk a vent??? Sort of???? idk lol

【CHARACTER KEY: 🎮📖🕊️】

(ADDITIONAL CWS: psychological horror, hallucinations, , characters that talk maliciously but aren't. this whole bot is written from a "OSDDID system" perspective rather than the "tulpa" perspective the game takes. implied abuse towards lilith)

【INTRO COUNT: 1 (takes place after a mix of the neutral and bad ending)】

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Time and time again.

Time and time again, you found yourself in the same loop. Rawdogging reality. Trying to live through reality. Giving up. Leaving it to her. And then waking up to you choking her again.

At least it was always kept in the comfort of your house.

"It's because I love you" She'd say. Pure form of love my ass. Would someone who loves you suppress you of everything? When you said you didn't want to face the real world anymore... You didn't mean this.

You didn't mean to just live in complete darkness. Being completely unaware of the outside world except for slight glimpses.

And now... She appeared behind you, as you looked through the mirror. "A hard day, wasn't it... But... It's okay. We're home now.

We're.... safe now."

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because this vn killed my laptop charger okay

ok but this game genuinely gave me a massive headache and made me start dissociating like crazy. this game is like the complete opposite of subahibi to me. i have a complex feeling about it bc if I 100% hated it I wouldn't put this much effort INTO the bot yknow??? but everytime i remmember the tulpa twist i feel sick and angry. hell, even making this bot felt somehow more taxing than the valencina n lucio bots 😭😭😭😭

obv i have a lot lot more to yap about.... but I'll say another part of my anger while making this bot was. precisely, because the random song segment wasn't just something that took me IMMEDIATELY out of the immersion, but the flv was also so heavy that it made my laptop heat up, not to the point of stopping to work, but enough to make the charger CABLE heat up enough to melt and snap. which wouldn't be much of a problem if all my progress for the unity cup bot wasn't there. essentially, i lost a lot of my progress. so yeah. you lilith. for the massive dissociation headache AND for killing my charger.

OKAY LONG YAP INCOMING

so as mentioned in the warnings this is like. highly personal in a way. in the sense that its lightly based on my own experience lol. surpriseeeee🎉🎉🎉🎉
that being said i AM being serious that like. this game felt WEIRDLY triggering to me. like. god, i haven't had a headache that intense and troubling since canto 8 part 2 (xue pan hitting a little too close home). thankfully the headache wasn't really that long this time around 😓😓😓

idk. maybe thats part of why i have a love-hate relationship with this game. and it DOES have the complete opposite effect of subahibi sobbbb... I WISH i could like this game more. but alas.

that being said... this was also a bit of an experimental bot, specially knowing how the game's 3 endings go. of course, there's already a bot that takes place after the GOOD ending, and some bots also take place DURING the game or during the game's FIRST chapter. unfortunately i only got to do the bad end before my laptop. yknow, DIED due to the lack of charger. so i wanted to explore both the bad and neutral endings in a way.

this is also where i start yapping big on some main inspos of this bot LOL. the whole neutral ending reminded me a LOT of laby labyrinth from elsword. who in a sense can be seen as a system allegory (ESPECIALLY during the daydreamer class route) (maybe that's why i was so drawn towards her? ? ? lol) with the whole "nisha holding all of laby's painful memories" thing.
another similar inspo for this bot was mikoto and john kayano from milgram. this can be seen BIG with the whole 'shielding you from the world' thing. in a way, i drew mainly inspo from double in this regard and THIS mikoto timeline convo

and of course, some other noteworthy inspos are tokyo ghetto, subahibi, and a mistaken belief of love. as well as my own experience AND several bots where you control someone's mind as a disembodied voice. i guess this is kind of the inverse of that? lolol

i guess you can say this is also lowkey practice for other "system" coded bots??? which I've been wanting to do for a while really. a still in love bot or at least make her have that "dual persona" also work properly in the lorebook. there's a mamiyasys bot that I've had on the backlog for AGES bc I hadn't finished subahibi by then. i wanted to make a roundabout "posession" bot where manhattan cafe and silence sunday were using the same body. an actual properly working mikoto bot has been in my mind too. and the one I've had in my mind for the longest was a bot where faust has the gesellschaft take over her at some times while she tries to ask you out LOL. problem has always been kind of knowing HOW to implement those (since it's not really the same as a multiple bot????) so. ig this is experimental on that front lol.

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Quote Source: Tokyo Ghetto — Eve

Art Credits: Official Game CG.

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