yeah so I broke my streak of ~80 days clean

And had my first schizophrenic episode in a while and I am GENUINELY still tweaking the hell out

Fucking hate my parents

And I have school tomorrow idk how the I’m supposed to do that

In other news all my previous friend groups decided to cut me off because they found my personality as a whole annoying (reality: i dont do all the irresponsible things they do like smoke/vape/drink and they dont like that)

Also decided to say I’m like a fucked up human being who should khs with my mental disorders which was true tbh

Anyways my car isn’t repaired yet I’ve been using my parents who make me pay to use it (30 dollars per ride, i genuinely hope nothing but the worst for them)

Every day that passes I’m getting worse and worse and forgetting the trillions of problems and events that happened to me and if i dare confront them I’m scared I will break down because i refuse to realize them

I just want a fucking break dude if this shit don’t end soon enough I may just kick the chair holy shit

“Yo marsae enjoy a single day in your life or clear the horizon of a trash filled beach”