So here's the reason i didnt make any bots during peaktober.

So I have deep-seated self image issues, im fat, ugly, irresponsible etc. But I was struggling with my mental health, I thought about k####ng myself, I had and still got a backup knife.

The only reason i continued and didnt die peacefully was that I move on from things fast, just scrolled shorts then was better.

I feel ashamed, my cat's are the only reason I also stayed to this day, I love them and they love me, with their small little heads.

And I blocked/deleted my twitch/YT. A 2 day long "crashout" cuz im a .

Im trying to find motivation to care, school is going mid, doing well on one thing but thats it. My home life is boring, have a baby bro now.

Im ruining everyone's life. Im sorry yall, Im a pitiful mistake

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