It's been a minute, hasn't it? I feel like I owe at least a bit of an explanation, and an apology for disappearing so suddenly. I really am sorry. It's weighed on me for a while.

One, life got hard. Two, though who amongst us isn't unwell, I happen to be a very mentally ill individual with the sorts of diagnoses that therapists refuse to take on and that come with all manner of fun little curiosities like "mania" and "bouts of psychosis". I think if you remember my notes it may have been obvious. This is all relevant because most of my bots were written in some degree of mania, and I'm sure you may be able to guess that my decision to take everything down came on impulse during a sort of episode too. I am medicated enough to not blow up my real life and hold down a job and all those good things but my medication is mitigation, not a magic miracle cure. I wish!

On a level less related to brain chemistry, I became so discouraged. The fellow story-heavy creators I got inspiration from weren't around anymore, and for all the kind comments I received, I was getting more and more very non-constructive comments about my work - it being weird, nonsensical, too dark, the characters being unlikable, yada yada, all phrased less kindly than I'm portraying here. Sometimes it was that they weren't romantic or ~spicy~ enough or something else along those lines, which I don't understand because a solely romantic or sexual approach has never been my focus and nearly every other creator will satisfy those needs. Surely you've taken a wrong turn somewhere? Criticism is all right but I never got anything in that vein that wasn't destructive.

I deleted those, some were on JAI and others were through my request forms (why?!), but it certainly didn't help my motivation, especially to make all the unconventional bots I wanted to make. I really wanted to take a crack at more things like the choose-your-own-adventure style Yeosang bot I once made, for example.

With all that said and done: am I coming back? Am I putting anything back up?

I don't know and I'm sure that's disappointing. I may consider releasing a few more bots here and there. I still get the 'itch' sometimes. I've unprivated the handful of bots that were made on request, since keeping those down felt a little mean anyhow. I never privated anything on my side account because I forgot and by the time I remembered I figured it didn't matter enough to take them down, so those will be staying up too.

I'd also like to thank everyone who supported me while I was active. It means far more than you know to the gayboy on your phone and I put quite a bit of time and effort into them. Despite being an AI-based hobby I never used AI in the process of making all forty-something of my bots. They're my mpreg children.

I'm also sorry if you'd like to keep up with me anywhere else. I'm not active on any major social media and I would like to keep my account on the Archive separate from this. At the end of the day I hope you're all doing well. =)