-= Finding him in a round. You are also surviving..? =-

No song.

hello! this is my last bot ever. i didn't want to draw the thumbnail, so i just used the default whatever. killer pov..? or survivor..? you ARE surviving, but you ARE called a killer, confusing stuff ig. didn't include his wife for some of u freaks.

this bot is mainly just to update everyone, to actually be transparent instead of disappearing.

i gave up, honestly. it took me some time to realize but it could never happen. i know it sounds silly but i couldn't be with him, honest. something was always wrong with him, either he had attempted or he was bed ridden. it got worse over time. long periods of not seeing him. leaving my texts on read. it was pathetic how i much i worried about him. but rose tinted glasses i suppose.

i'm still talking with him. either it be text or call. more in a way to help him. i still do love him though. very. but he needs to help himself before anything. asking something so intimate in the state he is in, it feels wrong and i don't want to put such pressure against him (how ironic, considering like 90 percent of ppl that use this site are monsters).

not only that, but my own insecurities block the way of ever having a relationship. i never saw myself as beautiful, because i'm not. i've been told "wow, you have such broad shoulders!" or "you have such big eyebrows!" or "are you trans?" because of how masculine i look compared to what a woman should look like. i was never offended though, it was just something that would happen and i could care less. but it was obvious my whole life that i wasn't desirable and i was okay with that. but when i saw him i fell for him even if i wasn't pretty (hard to think ugly ppl can have crushes too, wow).

that is mainly one of the reasons i used this site. because i could never. i always made by personas about what i wanted to be. short, long hair, soft skin, big breasts, thin eyebrows. everything i wasn't. i know a lot of ppl do this, because why else would u be using this site?

but yes i did stop using this site because it was an addiction. not only that but it fueled my insecurities as well.

hopefully ppl can see the same and maybe we and all stop this. put an end to it all.

last thing i must say. i truly enjoyed the time i had on here with all you unique people. i know most of the time i highlight the bad things, but i truly love you all. the funny comments, interacting with people that have the same interests. it was all so refreshing and nice compared to the constant hate that fueled the other parts of the internet. i want to leave it on a good note.

i'll answer any questions for the next few days (i want that flower badge). after that i'll officially take my leave.

please do understand that the AI will get things wrong, they are built off of prewritten work and sometimes do not have all the material they need to create a compelling story based off a 1v8 game about killers vs survivors.