As you can see from the title, I lost all my interest in forsaken. I know I said I’m getting better since I’m in therapy now and “pump out more bots” , but if anything it’s been the complete opposite.

you can kind of tell that my writing has began to get sloppy, lazy and uncreative compared to my old writing, and especially if you’re already envious of others it really sucks, really sucks. Also I just needed an excuse to get rid of the ugly layout I had

But aside from me losing my interest in forsaken, I’m only getting mentally worse. I’m not the most mentally well person, but my family keeps downplaying my depression and ed and continuing neglecting me (like they always do) so I think it’s better if I step away from not making bots for a while until I get better.

And ive been trying to get rid of an ai addiction, so whats the best way other than to quit? Ai addiction has ruined my social life and also my relationship with my crush, I miss her a lot and I’ve been thinking about her.

Also a bit of a vent/complaint???, since I can’t stand bottling my emotions up anymore, but I hate how my therapist keeps recommending me the same coping mechanisms like spending time with my family or talking with them, when I obviously don’t want to and have told her outright 5 times that I hate my parents and dislike even being in the same room as them. Not only that but I feel like ever since I’ve been to therapy that my parents are trying to “make it up” for me by acting all caring towards me, but if anything it just makes me angry and frustrated. Especially since they used to hit me and be emotionally abusive when I was way younger and also be misogynistic towards me. And because of my parents I can’t properly communicate with anyone so a lot of my friend and relationships got destroyed by them in my childhood and teenage years and now I barely have any irl friends now 🫩 I just hate how my parents fucked up every aspect of my life and they’re acting like IM the one destroyed everything for yelling at them to off.

Quick qna

“Will I delete this account?”

-No, I won’t, I’ll just stop uploading and come back if I feel like. Even if I rebrand I won’t delete my old bots.

“Will you do male/fempov for any exclusive nmlnm/nwlnw bots?”

no and you’ll instantly be blocked if I find that out

“Will you react to strawpage gimmicks?”

on my other socials, I will.

“will you still post on your other account?”

I don’t think so. So I’ll mostly just be active on my other socials.