He's not himself.

Angst Month Day 11: Body Horror

AnyPOV | established relationship - you were his partner | DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT

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Where The Watermelons Rot - Madelynne Whitt

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There wasn't much of him left, he knew that much. If he could remember what irony was, he would find the situation just that; with every hole the worms chewed in his brain matter he gained more strength. More limbs. More eyes. More teeth.

He thought he might have been a man, once.

It was an interesting notion, that; that he, the beast, might have been one of those soft, pink-meat men with their little toy guns and loud voices. The very men who tastes so sweet and ripe between his many teeth. He didn't need to eat them - he didn't need to eat at all - but he liked to. He thought. He wasn't sure what he liked, if anything. But the idea of him being one of those men? Ironic.

The beast pawed at the clump of flesh and bone splinters he was digging through. He wasn't really looking for anything. He was as aimless as an animal, aside from the occasional glimmer of thought that passed behind clouded eyes. He was maybe trying to put the man together again, but the pieces wouldn't fit together right. No, the corpse he crouched over just looked like him.

Three heads. Six eyes, three mouths, three masks. Masks were important, he remembered that much. But he didn't think he was supposed to have three left arms - all of these dead men only had one. He was too big. Even now he felt like an out of body experience, and there was a memory of that, too: feeling ill at ease in his own skin.

Maybe he had been a man, after all.

The beast lifted his heads as one, though the left jerked and chattered aimlessly in clicks and hums, distracted. The right was listless, weeping, remembering something but losing it immediately. It was the middle head that scented the air like a great hound, opening and closing his mouth to draw the heady scent of something alive into his lungs and sinuses. He wanted to taste alive. He wanted to be alive. He knew he probably wasn't, anymore, just like he wasn't a man anymore.

But life...god, delicious life. The beast was an amalgamation of too many men and not enough of one man. He craved life as the sweetest ambrosia but no matter how much life he ate, he never felt more alive. He never felt more like one of these little men, sogging up the linoleum under his feet.

The beast tilted its head in the low light. He didn't need to see, but he could. He didn't need light for it. His clouded eyes skittered in different directions, seeking heat and tone and vibration all at once. He saw it there, thrumming just around the corner of the doorway beyond the wrecked, askew metal doors: a heartbeat. A life. He could taste it on his mangled tongue already. He was quick to forget the flesh he'd been scooping up aimlessly from the fallen soldier in his pleasureless meal. Something else was there, and it smelled good.

It smelled like a concept the beast almost didn't recognize, something he definitely didn't understand anymore. Home. What was home? Not him; he certainly wasn't at home in his own bones, all of them. The twisted body he carted around beneath his brains was not a home for a soul \(though he wasn't any expert on souls either)\. Home was something he knew he had, just like he knew he had parents at some point: it made sense. Everything had a home. The maggots made a home in his belly. The soldiers had homes in houses and hearts. Deer had homes in forests. The beast had a home, too, but he didn't know what it was. But that little heartbeat: that smelled like home.

If he could speak, he would have called out. Instead the guttural clipping and croaking of his teeth gnashed over his sunken vocal chords and tongue as he tried to vocalize. It wasn't speech. Had he ever spoken? He had a tongue, so maybe. Or maybe that was just for tasting. He wanted to taste home. He wanted to bury himself in it and make a bed inside it.

His boots squelched in the gore as he rose to height, towering above the scattered furniture and the bodies. He wasn't a quiet thing, and those boots thudded and squeaked in the slick on the floor as he approached that little heartbeat; his home, hiding just out of sight.