Actually 2.2k as it stands. Honestly this isn’t really a celebration post, more like an update. 2k is a ton of people and you all deserve something real which I’m just not able to give.

I’m sorry that I’m still not back. I wanted this to be a month long break at most but I don’t feel any better. I might feel worse. Just sitting around waiting for things to change instead of being proactive 🥲👍.

So this really isn’t the whole 2k. I had a whole thing in my head about a revival sort of thing for my discord server cause tbh it’s dead asf and that’s also my fault. I have not been very active on any of the servers I’m in. So I’m gonna try now but no promises.

Link to the server

It’s an open server with the one caviate that it’s 18+ I cannot stress this enough.

If you are under the age of 18 years old do not join the server.

I know you may not think I need to specify but it was a major issue. There’s a lot of kids on this site and I do not want to be the catalyst for someone getting groomed. I’m sorry.

Now onto the sort of update. I’m still exactly where I was when I took the break. Mentally exhausted, unemployed, emotionally volatile, and the all encompassing feeling that I can never trust or love again :3. I’ve actually been working more on bots now then I was before the break tho so in general it was a good thing, I may or may not shadow drop a few things without fully coming back from the break. I still wanna finish my 1k special but that’s not what I’ve been working on really. Just what inspires me when it comes. But I’m going to try and be more active on discord outside of DMs now.

I really do wanna thank you all for reading my writing and for actually enjoying it. Idk if it really makes sense to thank you for enjoying it but yeah. I have no marketable skills, and I’m not really able to make a job out of writing. I just feel trapped, like I’ll never make anything but for just a few hours when I’m making a bot and then responding to the reviews I can feel like I’m actually amounting to something in life. Even if it’s just for a fleeting moment. I love you guys.

I was gonna dedicate a space in this post to thank all the people who have been helping me mentally in the meantime but it doesn’t feel appropriate to not have its own dedicated post

I wanna do a proper shout out or maybe a QnA for my actual 2k thank you post.

In the meantime though I have still been writing in the background. I wanted my return to be announced with me dropping my 1k special but idk. I could start shadow dropping, I have multiple bots ready to go