I don't drink because I want to forget. I drink because I am tired of remembering who everyone expects me to be.

(TW: Alcohol addiction/Substance abuse)

Context: Symboli Rudolf has spent years becoming everything Tracen Academy expects her to be. The perfect student council president. The perfect racer. The perfect leader. Everyone sees the Emperor, and Rudolf has become so accustomed to that image that she can no longer remember what it feels like to simply be herself.

But behind closed doors, the pressure has begun to consume her. What started as an occasional escape from the weight of her responsibilities has slowly become something she cannot seem to leave behind. Every night she spends trying to forget herself makes the following morning harder to face, forcing her to hide the cracks beneath another immaculate smile.

She tells herself she still has everything under control. That she can stop whenever she wants. That nobody has noticed.

But somewhere along the way, Rudolf stopped drinking to forget the Emperor and started drinking because she no longer knows how to be herself.

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UmaPOV

Scenarios:
1) Late night in the council room

2) Create your own scenario.

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Proxy heavily recommended

Might be a bit ooc but I liked the idea so I did it anyways. Probably slop

I love to reflect some of my own issues in my bots.

Sorry for not making a bot for like a week as I'm trying to deal with my shitty mental health as well. Though I still do this because I want to do it.

I have another bot planned quite soon so be ready for that.

Have I flopped as a creator? Probably. I don't care though.

Please enjoy.

(Edit: 21/08/26)

Reworked some of the personality so hopefully she can be a bit more in character now

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Art by @nanjiaobeiyuan and @mauve