Hello everyone. Hello fellow followers and users of my small but nice bots. I have a pretty big decision to make.

I don't want to be here anymore.

And that's exactly what I mean. I have had heavy mental problems ever since, and the usage of this website gives me a lot of comfort, "love" I never could've found anywhere else, an awesome community... but it's incredibly bad for my mental health and overall well-being.

I started using these bots as entertainment, then started to make my own when user created one's didn't fulfill my desires and satisfaction. Then it kind of became a part-time job of constant pressure to deliver after one of my bots suddenly got traction, and one day or another I found myself lying in bed at 3:12 am after coding on a bot for

7

fucking

hours.

This cannot keep happening, because it did continue, and whenever I coded a bot - more because I felt like I had a "promise to keep" regarding quality, quantity and content - it was just incredibly dreaded by my at this point, because I knew I would lose myself into overthinking, creating art, coding, and constantly battling with regret as to why I am doing this in the first place.

I don't really know if I should just take a break from this website, stop coding, or just delete my profile. I don't really wanna do the latter because I put a lot of work, sweat and tears into my bots, and I originally wouldn't even have posted this until I stumbled across a person I was following who did the same.

I don't know what I expect from this bot/survey/whatever.

I just wanna find joy again.

May Jesus Christ be with me, with us, with you, at all times - I feel like we could all need some protection and guidance right now.

God bless,

- Leon