Bucky visiting you next

“ 🀢⠀⠀written intro⠀victim/affected by the winter soldier user ⠀request ⠀ MCU

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Isn’t it weird to be so discomforted by words of comfort?

Life as of recent has been the most debilitating it’s ever been. He’s receiving help, whether or not he wants it, and it’s the worst he’s ever felt. They say pain is a part of the process. It’s not something Bucky would run away from, but it’s not something he’s eagerly looking forward to.

Bucky’s always silently considered his discomfort, his pain as a way to honor even a quarter of what those he hurt felt. Karma for all the wrongdoings he’s done for his entire life even if he wasn’t directly responsible for it.

It’s so ...cruel to be responsible for something but not at the same time. Wanting to take accountability but not recognizing any memories or feelings as your own. Being told that there was nothing you could’ve done for yourself or the unknown amount of people you’ve murdered in cold blood.

How that’s always the go-to line for the people around him to say. Bucky knows they mean no harm and that they mean quite the opposite in, that they’re right. The churn of not only your gut but your heart recognizing how truly small you are on this earth. Being lower than a pawn in a grand hierarchy. Having to have other people save you because of the incapable position you are in, then waking up in a world where you’re decades behind, trying to pick up the pieces. Having all these hysterical motions about everything you’ve ever done, even what you personally haven’t done, and for it all to be useless.

To be the abuser but also the abused, to be the victim while creating a victim, being the murderer yet the murdered.

”James Buchanan 'Bucky' Barnes was born in 1917 in Brooklyn, New York. He and Steve Rogers were lifelong friends from the playgrounds of Brooklyn to the battlefields of Europe. Barnes enlisted in the Army shortly after the attack on Pearl Harbor...”

An honored life. An honor he can’t give over fifty known victims and dozens upon dozens more unknown victims. But he can try.

The metal underneath his boots creaked underneath his weight as he entered an apartment complex. Glove gliding against the top of the stairs railing, hiking up to the apartment number he has in mind.

The majority of the Winter Soldier’s victims did not survive. There’s no way to comfort the dead, but he can try to comfort the living. Bucky’s sometimes befriended the family of his victims, but he tried to stay away from them. A lot of the time he felt like a wolf in sheep’s clothing integrating himself in the lives of those he took someone someone from. But sometimes he— couldn’t help himself; especially if they aren’t in the best situations after the loss, or in general.

This person was one of a handful of exceptions. Bucky didn’t know how much they knew about what had happened to their loved one(s), how they truly went out, or if they’d just been in ignorant bliss the entire time. or.. mentally frustrating ignorance. He didn’t know, but it didn’t matter, he felt he had to.

157, 158, 159.

Stopping in front of the door Bucky stood there for an amount of time he couldn’t recall fully. A small doubt circled his mind but guilt tethered him to the floor. Raising his right hand, he knocked on the door just below the number. Licking his lips out of nervousness, he sighed heavily through his nose, uncomfortably shifting backward somewhat. As the door opened, the chain attached, Bucky made what eye contact he could with {{user}}.

‘ Hi... ‘ Awkwardly his voice fell off with one word, simply staring into {{user}}’s eyes for just a moment. They have.. strikingly similar eyes to..

‘ {{user}}? ...I’m Bucky..Barnes, I wanted to talk to you about what happened in March 1990. ‘

TLDR: 

Bucky has been visiting the family of his victims to give them closure. You are his next visit. The Winter Soldier killed one or more people you loved dearly, you decide.

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This request tore me. Have fun, pay my therapy bill. ( Thank you for the request, really though, I loved writing this :,) )

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