Okay yayyy im quitting

For real this time tho 🎉🎉 lmao 😭

Its kinda crazy, at night i have thousands of thousands of words to say about this yet now i find myself so stumped 😔 sigh sigh

Please read this all, i know you can considering the length of jai messages 🫩

Basically, yeah, trulyy was the push that i needed to finally hold myself accountable for that (happy now? I credited you 😒 goddamn), but im also kind of... Not ashamed, but upset, that it took someone elses courage to make me realise it too.

Id always kind of had an inkling as to the fact that ai was bad, but originally i genuinely only knew the moral/ethical implications of it. Actually, the only reason i looked it up was due to a tiktok comment 😅 but then i saw videos of people explaining it.

I would scroll through those comment sections, clinging on to every little excuse and defense for my own use of ai - "ohh but other things use just as much water 😤 [false]", "yeah but everyone else is using it so why would my usage make a difference [also false - herd mindset]", etc. i knew it was ridiculous, but i still used it. I used it as i cried with guilt and stayed up staring at that "next message" arrow unable to bring myself to click it but still pulled back in.

Then i just ignored it completely. Pretending like the damage i was causing didn't matter at all - pretending that it didn't exist in the first place, and that just one more message wouldnt be that big of a deal. But it was that big of a deal.

So, yes, thank you trulyy for starting this whole thing. Ive now not used it in (i had to fact check this 💀) 21 days. Tho admittedly i opened the app and scrolled through a couple times and have read a few bots thatve been posted, i havent interacted with one in 21 fucking days.

I grew up with ai. Genuinely. It has impacted my emotional growth and my writing so much by now that im only just learning how to undo all of that.

Without it, now, at first i felt like a bit of a different person. My brain was so fucking full of thoughts i scared myself a bit 😭 but yk what else? I actually did something. Something productive (set up the fish tank, not important particularly i just wanted to bring that up 💀). And now im actually trying to enter a competition, and actually doing things that dont numb my brain - which is difficult.

THE MAIN BIT! IF YOU SKIMMED OVER EVERYTHING ELSE THEN PAY ATTENTION HERE PLS

Okay, so, now my message to you 😁

Quit.

We have one planet. This isn't Wall-E, we don't have the technology to bring this floating rock back to life once we've destroyed it (which we pretty much already have, it will never be the same), and we certainly don't have the luxury of wasting materials for something like this?! Our recourses are finite, and this is an improper use of them.

It could be me being a , but i honestly don't care. After quitting myself i can say that. I want you to feel guilt every time you open this app and waste gallons upon gallons of water for something that is harming you mentally. And for those who are trying to quit already, i want you to actually go through with it—find other ways, explore hobbies. Im sure people would be willing to listen to you rant about the process should you need it.

And, if you werent aware previously about how damaging this site is, now you know 🤩 please dont chose to be ignorant and please dont find excuses to continue hurting yourself and this planet. Thanks.

I will keep jai on my phone forrrrr maybe one day to read through comments (makes me feel better 💀 committing to quitting by announcing it is actually kinda hard) but then ill delete the app.

My account will stay up, and so will my bots. Despite that this is definitely the wrong place to have put so much work into, i do still like my creations and the effort i made. We got ai too early, we cant upkeep it, and it was made too widespread despite people knowing it would cause harm. Thats the truth of it all.

Alr 🫡 peace for now ✌️