Starting this off with saying I dont plan on leaving, I know there have been quite a few people who have left.

I've made it clear in past posts I struggle with my mental health and have a stressful life that makes it hard for me to focus on things like this now. I think my long absences I take between posts have made it even clearer, but I wanted to just say I probably won't return to posting as frequently as I used to. I used to be able to pump out ideas and bots almost daily but I think once I started to have more eyes on me I worried too much about the satisfaction of everyone else and too little about my own enjoyment and mental state.

My mental health deteriorates quite quickly and easily with all my overthinking, and I think stepping back to take attention off of me ( + Making myself stop focusing so much on satisfying others) is better for my mental state. I enjoy posting and seeing the responses, but anxiety is a huge pain in the ass. I am unmedicated and have no REAL way to take care of it, and I probably won't for a while. It gets pretty hard to do anything in my life. Even daily tasks, it's embarrassing. I'm sure plenty of you will relate to me, and I'm glad to have any followers at all, especially with how downhill I believe my writing and overall creativity have gone. I appreciate the support I have gotten in the past🩷

I know lots of people may not follow or pay attention to my posts anymore since I keep going silent, but I promise if I do stop completely, I'll be upfront with you and tell you. im still here, just exhausted. 😓

I could possibly post an actual bot soon but tonight has been extra interesting for me, so I won't promise. I will try to post even just an old bot and fix it up to be good enough for you guys🩷

tldr: My long breaks aren't signs of me slowly stepping off and disappearing without a word, life is just a pain sometimes.

Edit: thank you all for the wonderful and sweet replies, im very grateful to have this support from you guys. i appreciate it a lot <3