I am so tired of my own life. I don't know how long I can keep myself together and push forward. I'm being torn down piece by piece and I can't do anything other than just watch as I slowly die on the inside. I hate myself, I hate the person I've ended up being, I hate everything about me and I want to kill the person inside me. But I can't, because it's still me. I can't end myself on the spot.

Not yet. I'm still gonna try to keep going for a while. If things just DON'T change, and I'm still stuck in this state of my mind. Then it's over. If things do change, I'll update this.

For now, I'll be just sobbing on my pillow, and hope I can have a good dream to remember and keep me on my foot.

Goodnight.

Edit1: things aren't getting any better. It started well, I had hope. But everything just stroke me from behind. I'm limping, I'm depressed, and I'm already considering just, Ending it. Quick, simple, it could save me from the pain. Yet I haven't. There's a slim chance things will get better. But I'm not sure if I can hold on that hope without fearing the worst.

Edi2: HELLO THERE, how's going? I'm feeling better. I'm not deleting this bot because there's two comments in here and I do not want them deleted because that would be mean! So, this will stay here. Also, I made a little bit of modification to the bot so it's Partially chattable (is that even a real word? Meh whatever). Merry Christmas fellas